I guessed it arose on Sunday, when I went to JP's house for steamboat.. Waited for Shalley to come but in the end, she lost her way and stayed uncontactable thereafter. We were worried about her but we had to wait for news from her. We left at about 6 plus and I reached home at 7. Dad told me kemp and mum were at a funfair carnival at the marketplace near house. And so I went there to look for them.. It was damn crowded.. Had to queue for a lot of play-stations. I was messenging him from outside and I had a headache from the noise and crowd.
I commented something like "Is my english very hard to understand?" Not knowing that some of messenges didn't go through.. And so he didn't get fully what I said.. We almost quarrelled until I apologised. Well, it was a genuine mistake for I thought all my messenges went through.. Only after that then I realised my messenges didn't go through.. And that was end of Sunday. Tired and I slept early.
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Monday. Shalley replied our msg and she commented that she had a lot of sorrows that she preferred not to share. Even msg JP that she married the wrong man.. We were concerned and decided to go her house look for her after work.. Decided to have dinner near her house as an excuse to meet her.
And so I told him. He was okay with it. And so it ended with a take-away dinner at her house and chatting at Mac thereafter. But our mission weren't accomplished as her husband joined us at Mac. Shalley asked him to drive us to Mac, which was not very near her house and I guessed asked her husband to stay with us as she needed someone to drive her home thereafter. And so we chatted about our old poly days.. Chatted until we lost track of time.
He called at 10.. Asking me why I have not gone home. Well, I was in the midst of chatting.. And everyone had looked at me when my phone rang.. And so I quickly put down the phone and continued. Didn't want to spoil the atmosphere. But we didn't continue for long. Stopped the conversation and her husband drove us to the MRT thereafter.
Gaius stayed in CCK and so we took the same train back. He asked if the one who called was him. I said yes and even told him that he's just concerned about me staying out late and not having enough sleep for work the next day. Were talking to Gaius about shalley stuff throughout the journey. He got off at CCK and I msg him that I was on way back home.
He called me thereafter. Told him that I didn't liked it when he called when I was in the midst of talking with my friends. I know he was concerned. But come on, I'm not a kid anymore. I know the timing and all that. I know I had to work the next day. I know I won't have enough sleep. But the moment I agreed to meet them after work on a Monday, I was prepared for all this. So I told him that. And that we only settled down at abt 8. He didn't expect us to stop and leave at 9 right?
He went quiet. He said he won't do that again. Ok. I wasn't scolding him. I just didn't like the feeling that he was controlling me.. And chasing me to quickly go home. I don't always go out and I have few friends. Can't I stay out a little longer, a little later?
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Tuesday. After a long day yesterday I obviously was tired. The morning conversation was short as I was tired and I didn't want to find topics to talk about. I guessed he felt that I was angry and didn't want to talk. Why did he not realise that it was because I was tired and so I didn't want to talk??
6 plus. I wanted to stay back a bit later to finish my work and go home eat dinner and sleep. But he had to bring up shalley's issue. Suggested that I meet her alone on Fri and blah.. Come on, do we need him to even advise us on that? In the morning we had discussed about it already and intended to find a chance to meet shalley alone one of these days..
Probably I was tired and didn't sound too good. But what I meant was that can he, a big MAN do things that a man should do, I.e his work his studies his assignments and not bother himself with such small matters like the emotional state of my girlfriend??
I mean for such emotional matters of girls, its usually for other girlfriends to go and ask and share and listen and suggest.. Its So unusual for guys to go and share unless they are gay.
So when he asked and gave me suggestions, I suddenly felt that its so girly of him.. And that he should spend time on other matters, other big and more serious matters and not such girl matters.. He said he was trying to find other topics to talk to me.. But sorry, that was a bad topic to talk about.
And now he thinks I should apologise for all the things.. And that I'm being stubborn for not apologising and that I'm denying all the facts that I threw temper.. But where did I throw temper? When did I ever scold him? Scolding should be more fierce more harsh.. When was I ever harsh and fierce during these 2 days?
I don't understand..
And as usual, our same problem now. He don't understand me and I don't understand him...
